niazkilam : #longhair
John Keats’s handwritten poem “To Fanny”. The page reads:
Ah dearest love! sweet home of all my fears,
And hopes, and joys, and panting miseries
To night, if I may guess, thy beauty wears
A smiling of such delight,
As brilliant and as bright,
As when with ravished, aching, vassal eyes,
Lost in soft amaze,
I gaze, I gaze!
I get soo sick of introvert and extrovert divisions like fair enough people like words that they feel mostly define them but the the fact of the matter is with these words specifically is that most of the time people are just too dynamic and so many aspects of you can come from both categories and it just like, shits me that people sometimes define each other using just one or two characteristics
when I read about “ambiverts” I was like oh yeah that can be me but the fact of the matter is I don’t really want to use any of these words at all, people are made up of too much for just one word to sum them up perfectly
though I should reiterate that if some people do feel that these words adequately describe them than fair enough, but I think the problem is when these people start applying them to others wrongfully so because if you like being around people you’re suddenly an extrovert even though you’ve experienced a lot of emotions and stuff that aren’t “extroverted” at all and it just ?????
…Medusa by Benjamin Lacombe…
Hey there. This pallet, god. Took a long time trying to beat the colors into making some sense, and I learned a lot but my brain is fried. Please just imagine they’re by the sea having a little moment, and take me back to season one. ;v;
Bonus: Failed first attempt. I always want to do simple and clean with lines and flat colors but nope. By the time I realize, it’s already partway rendered and awkward-looking… and I usually end up having to go further…
i am so tired i don’t even know how i’m typing right now am i awake am i asleep or somewhere in between
i turned 22 yesterday (and i literally didn’t find an opportunity to listen to 22 so shame on me. but i have a whole year to listen to it so it’s ok). i am so fucking lucky???? i have the most amazing friends and the most amazing family and sure we have so many ups and downs (some worse than others) but i feel almost guilty for how good i have it re: the love i receive. i mean today i surprised my friend at her work and she was so happy to see me!! and i was so tired and i wasn’t expecting it but she hugged me so tight and told me she misses me (it’s only been a week since i saw her last) and i just was so ahhhh, this is nice.
i saw wicked tuesday night (thankthankthank elise for bday tix) and it was fucking breathtaking. that story is something else. i can’t even go into it right now.
and yesterday i spent the morning with precious laura then my family surprised me with lunch and an ice cream cake from messina and i just.
AND TODAY i was so nervous because it was my first day of prac on aus mammals but i spent so much time with quokka’s (one nibbled on my finger) and an echidna that was literally a puppy, it licked me everywhere and snuffled at my feet and crawled all over me :’))))
i think i know exactly what i want to do next year re: animal care and i think i’m just going to dedicate a lot of my time to rehabilitate animals for release
i just need my licence by the end of the year (i think i’m going to buy a cheap car v soon so i can just make it my car that i practice on)
oh and i’ve grown pretty used to my work which i also feel so lucky for, it also has its ups and downs but i’m very lucky to have my job and that im making what i make (i hate capitalism though someone free us all i miss free time)
in which a gay cover of one of america’s most quintessential modern american love songs is a thing that exists